So last night I watched a You Tube video of probably one of the saddest, painful, and heart breaking videos ever. A young, 15 year old girl shared her tormented story about bullying on pieces of paper and made headlines because a couple days ago she committed suicide. Her beautiful face hangs within the shadows and without speaking, she bares her soul about the darkness of modern society. It was nine minutes long. For an hour after that I just stared at my dark computer screen while deep heaves of crying overwhelmed my body.
Amanda Todd could have been any one's little girl. Being a parent everything pertaining to innocent children stabs deeper now. Since I was blessed with the title of being a mom, my ONLY goal in this life is to protect my children. It's that simple. When I read about other children being neglected, abused and unloved I am extremely angry and then saddened that as a society we can't seem to evolve above our dark selves. Compassion, empathy, forgiveness, and love seem to be just words within a forgotten text rather than exercised liberally within our lives.
Life is not complicated. The only thing everyone wants to be is acknowledged that they make a difference in this world and are cherished for being exactly the way they are. I don't care what postulated hard ass you created on the outside to survive this world, on the inside you just want to be LOVED and APPRECIATED because you DO make a difference. We are all pieces of the same puzzle so therefore we all capable of the same light.
Tai started kindergarten this year. I am nervous... I'm not going to lie. He is beautifully not like me. He is extremely sensitive which will be his character's double edge sword. I am trying to teach him to wield his strength to share his kindness and compassion regardless of what difficult situation comes forth. Teaching him to understand his boundaries to protect his own light is going to be a challenge. Those who's gift to humanity is caring for people always seem to forget to take care of them self too. I feel as a parent you really need to watch this precious stage of development because their sense of self is so fragile. Parenting is not easy. Thank goodness we are social creatures so other role models such as aunts, uncles, grandparents, teachers and finally as a last case ditch, our government are all here to support each other. I am blessed because my family support network is unreal. Yes we fight and disagree and even throw in the odd threats, but when push comes to shove my family always has my back.
Honestly though, I have no faith in our public education system. Our government does not put a priority in their children so they set up our teachers to fail. The children that don't fit within the average model as prescribed by our archaic curriculum slip through the cracks and perpetuate a story involving hurting themselves or others. This is a fundamental flaw in our capitalistic society. We focus too much on the love of power and not the power of love. I can't change the world but I can make a difference in my children's. When stories like Amanda Todd's pierces our collective hearts I can't help but wonder if I should be investigating in alternative education options. Home schooling looks pretty decent lately.
Although her life ended too soon, her final act appeared to have awakened those that have been sleeping too long. YOU make a difference in people's lives. YOU have the power to create a positive or negative effect on other people. By doing NOTHING you are stagnant and contributing to the negative effect. Be the change you want to see in this world.
Dance in the light Amanda because now you unconditionally know you were never alone and always loved.
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