You know that feeling when all of a sudden a light turns on upstairs and suddenly everything that appeared to be scary turns out to be... really mundane? Well that wonky light bulb that I know has a switch attached to it but, for whatever reason, has never actually worked... finally effin turned on!
The irony is that it became abundantly clear in the midst of all the "chaos" occuring in everyone's lives. All my girlfriends who I madly adore and love are going through some pretty big shit. Not the, "OMG, she called me fat and old" shit. More like the, "OMG, what the hell?" shit. You know it's big shit if hours of talking, many bottles of wine and watching The Real Housewives of Vancouver never made you feel better about your situation. In between my own personal crisis of seeking something bigger than me, I have been trying to help where I can and some how amongst the layers of human crap I found a sliver of peace. Not exactly where one seeks peace but hey, I will take it and run.
Because my limiting human brain likes to categorize, I am going to categorize the entire human race into three neat sections (because by interior design law everything presents better when in threes). There are those that are not connected to anything and are unaware that they should be. There are those that are connected, but are unaware of it. Finally, there are those that are connected and are fully aware. The last group exists as a "Get Out Of Jail" free card for the rest of us that have wonky connections. I have unconsciously been seeking out a card carrying member of the last group of people for the last seven years and I am proud to report that I was finally able to meet one in the flesh.
Trevor Gollagher has 35 years of experience exploring all things that make you go "Hmmmmm" or "Ohmmmm" depending on what circle you run in (Okay I realize I am the only one that found that punny so it was totally worth the conjecture). A spiritual teacher, visionary, intuitive healer and author he has been mentoring my brilliant friend Laura Whieldon for the last couple of years. Based in Australia, he teaches people in workshops, on Skype, in person, through his 17 books, on YouTube, through Twitter and also on Facebook. Out of morbid curiosity I have been stalking him on Facebook and for whatever reason, he actually responded to my pathetic attempts of flattery. I was even able to barter my parent's freshly caught salmon and a promise to take him out to quality sushi next time he was teaching in Vancouver for his truths. This in itself is a win and no small feat since he is an extremely in demand and thus busy guy (Yes, the endless work of educating the lost souls of Earth)! Being the kind soul that he is, he has been giving me small bits and pieces of the puzzle and spoon feeding me just enough to curb the appetite without overwhelming the system into vomit mode. In between, Laura fills in the gaps and entertains my endless rambling of questions with Yoda like answers. So when I whine and ask why is the world so fucked up, she literally says: To be Jedi is to face the truth, and choose. Give off light, or darkness,
Padawan. Be a candle, or the night.
I have learned a lot about myself in the last couple of years. I have learned that my gut instinct, rather my connection, is deadly accurate and as a result of it I have been able to stay clear of sketchy, unsavory people. I can also tell when people are being dishonest, are full of themselves or full of shit. In my short journey here, I have been exposed to some pretty extraordinary things and always knew that the higher power exists regardless of what conventional wisdom states. I am putting the Huong stamp of approval on this guy... he is the real deal. Unfortunately for me, he answers my questions like Laura does (I see the student did not fall very far from the tree) so I still have to dig through Yoda replies like: No! Try not. Do, or do not. There is no try.
So... (subject to future modifications)... here is my esoteric light bulb moment to share. A variety of metaphors have been used to describe the complexity of our existence on Earth. Because it's my unique experience (and my blog) I have adjusted these various teachings to fit my "truth". Which is not to say I don't honor other explanations. If you have been a follower of my blog, my "truths" are often punctuated with cussing, poor grammar, slang, misspelled words which makes it both slightly entertaining and marginally educational. If I offend you, two questions should be crossing your mind. A) How the hell are you my friend? B) It's not my problem that you can't handle the truth ;)
So... once upon a time our perfect, divine Source of Light (SOL here after) wanted to authenticate her knowledge (technically SOL possesses both feminine and masculine energy but I hate reading s/he crap so I will just stick to straight girl power) . Having the knowledge without the experience is like reading a definition in the dictionary to describe the emotion of sad. It's two dimensional and means nothing until one has experienced it. So although all knowing by nature, SOL decided to create little versions of herself and send these SOULS (see how clever I am here with the acronym?) to different dimensions to collect these experiences. The coveted human suit on Earth is prized because of it's density... in cosmic terms it means you really FEEL everything. All the hardships, as you will have already had the pleasure of knowing, feels bloody brutal. As souls we have agreed in contract to play certain roles so we can collect certain experiences. Part of the contract is that we forget that we are powerful, divine light beings so we can truly authenticate our knowledge in this third dimensional world. Let's face it, if you knew you were all perfect and loving back home would you really mourn for your dead pet goldfish? Ya right. You'll probably skip the part where you're bawling your eyes out, writing emo poetry and spending all your parent's hard earn money on therapy, sex and drugs. Instead, you would probably just send an ethereal Hallmark card: Dear G-Dawg (formally Goldfish of reincarnation cycle 2013). Thanks for hanging out with me on this run. When you get back, can you make sure you watered the plants? I hate it when they're droopy after my short vacays. Love, perfect, all powerful soul.
Most of us are here to play the victim while some of us are here to support the victim. The majority of us are such amazing actors that when shit hits the fan, you sincerely and authentically demonstrate the full gamut of suffering, pain, joy, anger, greed, jealousy, lust, bliss, excitement, anxiety, fear and other neurotic human emotions. But like real actors, once the show is over we all return home, celebrate how brilliant we were in acting out our roles and the real party begins. This Earth drama continues on for many cycles of reincarnations until we have collected what we have set out to achieve.
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttt? Why the hell would any right minded person do that? So you're telling me I purposefully signed up for this shitty life? Uh... apparently yes. You and I have agreed to be actors in this insane asylum for the galaxy and have contractually agreed to play out certain roles for our spiritual development (AKA collectible experiences). So if we are playing out roles, and really nothing is up to chance, by definition then your shitty life is PERFECT. And that... was my AH-HAH moment!
I know... seriously depressing because at first glance most of us negatively hardwired peeps would have read that your shitty life is not getting better. That's where you are wrong. Because you can't get your life wrong, you might as well stop worrying about the future and stop being depressed about the past and start enjoying the present. You are LUCKY to have this shitty life because speaking from a multi dimensional perspective, wearing the rare and thereby fun human suit of insanity is like winning the cosmos lottery. Every experience is for a higher purpose but because our memory is limited by the contract you signed, your human brain can't process the bigger picture so the "Woes me" tune keeps playing on auto repeat. The good news is that you can ease this suffering with the help of people like Trevor. Remember that "Get Out Of Jail" card I mentioned earlier? Well, Trevor is a master star seed from another dimension (ya... Google that one... it only took me a month to wrap my head around that topic) and he is one of those souls that is directly connected to his Spirit Guides and also fully aware of his purpose here. He is not here for his own soul development but to assist others in theirs. If you remember your many past lives and your higher spiritual self in this lifetime isn't that equivalent to like cosmic cheating? I'm not sure but I figured you might as well shake what your Mama gave you.
Remembering your soul origins is one way to free ourselves from what we think are limiting when in reality its empowering. His general message to ease your suffering would be to remember that everyone is a perfect, powerful soul and our purpose is really to learn unconditional love for ourselves and others. And yes, like Yoda, he says shit like: Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate,
hate leads to suffering.
